There is something about coldness that makes me so sad. Every time I picture that frozen ball inside of my chest I contract. I'm vulnerable and unhappy. I dont know if this has to do with me hating winter time and loving the summer.
When we start imagining that we have a ball inside our chest, I feel it, when is room temperature, I find it fresh, Im just plain, not happy not sad just normal. The ball starts to get cold and colder.. my feelings change inmediately, I'm afraid, I'm lonely, I want to stay in a corner far from others, so I dont get them cold like me (sad and vulnerable as well)... I dont want to damage their happiness, if Im left alone at least im the only one suffering, having someone as sad as me wouldnt make me any happier...
but when the annoying iced ball gets warm, my mood starts to change for good. TYhe warmer it gets, the more powerful I become. Im big, Im important and I know I can radiate people my positive vibes. I want to approach them, its all good and it gets better!, "Im alive I want you to know about the beautiful things life has for you", thats pretty much what im saying.
When this ball gets too warm that feels like burning, I get a little afraid cuz maybe not everybody is ready for it. I become more distant, but I try to show them that is a good thing to feel secure and protected. I get positive responses!
I wish I could always be warm :)
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