We were practicing in class exercises about how we can "contract" or "expand" creating an illusion of space.
I believe all of us (in class) were more confortable doing the "expanding" part of it. Everybody likes to feel big I guess. I dont know anybody who enjoys being small, or feeling small.
On the one hand, when I was expanding I felt great myself, like nobody could hurt me--- UNTOUCHABLE. I felt like I was bigger than anybody else in class, even if they were expanding as well. No matter what, nobody could reach my level of greatness.
On the other hand, when it was time for me to contract, all kind of mixed feelings came up to me. I felt vulnerable, like suddenly I wasnt protected anymore. I felt pity for myself and in some periods of time I felt rage for being that way. To the world I wasnt important anymore, emptiness and loneliness filled up my heart. What a terrible feeling!
Sometimes I wish I could expand at all times, but to be honest, I could not even help myself for being so great, people would take me as mean and cold. I would probably scare people away or somehow take advantage of them when needed...
So it is good to have both of these feelings in life.. it creates a balance.
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